Looking B@ck On 20!6

To write down my goals for 2017, I need to look back on 2016. What I did and did'nt do to accomplish my goals. And needles to say, I did'nt work on my goals, the only working on my goals I did was writing it down on paper. Days are passing by, and I only got high and wasted all my time and invested a lot of money in nothing, cause at the end of the day, I was spending my money and time on blowing out smoke. I started with a lot of things but did not finished them. And in the process of being high or smoking a cigarette I was really convinced that I was working on my goals.


Feeling high brings you in an illusion. You think you are working on your goals and going forward in life. Instead you're standing still at the same place or  taking steps backwards. In your mind you are working hard on realizing your goals and dreams but in reality you're not.
But instead of crying about it, it's time to make different decisions to get different and better results.


As always, near the end of the year I start to look what I've accomplished over the year and write down my goals for the next year.  This year I came across another way to do it. It's called the 'One
Page Business Plan' by Patrick Bet-David. I recommend you to watch his YouTube video, he goes into detail how to write a good business plan, and you can use it in all area's for your life, click this link to watch his video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdGKAHvgBqo&t=828s

The Last Month Of The Year

                              

We're in the last month of 2016. This year went by so fast, I can't believe we're almost at the end of the year. And yes, I'm still smoking both weed and cigarettes.... and yes I still want to quit this nasty habit. As you can see, I'm still struggling with this bad habit... addiction... or whatever you want to call it.






It really is difficult for me, every time I was on the right path not to buy anything anymore, the urge to smoke made me bought some more supplies to feed the addiction.





So the last couple of weeks I started to focus on changing my mindset and working on my goals. I want to get the best out of the last month of this year.
I'm reading more books about area's I want to develop myself in, I'm working on bettering myself and I'm implementing the things that I've learned immediately on my life. I have goals that are sitting over ten years in my head, that I've written down over the years, but still haven't accomplish, let alone work on it.
And there is one thing I don't want, and that's to have regret when I'm older, and it's too late to accomplish anything in life.






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Inside a smoker's mind

Yes, I know I can do this! I'm way stronger than this little white stick filled with tobacco..

So... This will be my last cigarette!!
This will go on for a couple of hours, I am imagining myself as a non smoker already, how I will change, how my health & beauty will change..  everything will change if I quit smoking cigarettes.

Later that night....
I need to smoke!! I really want to buy a pack of cigarettes.... but this time it will be my last pack, that's the little promise I make myself believe in, so I can go out and smoke again.

The moment I inhale the first smoke... I hear a little voice, far away, telling me, ''You know you need this, you can't quit, once you become addicted to it, it will never leave your system, it's all lies, you will never quit..Even if you quit you will think about it, and crave it, no matter how many years you've quit, you will always long for it. So why endure all the stress of quitting, just keep smoking!!"

After I have smoked a couple of cigarettes.... I'm like, I can quit, I'm stronger than this little white stick. I will beat this addiction and come out as a better and healthier person.

And this cycle will go on and on. I have come to the realization that I'm not even trying to quit smoking anymore...It's all in my head, I only think about the possibility of being a non-smoker.

And that has to change!!

Why quit smoking

My reasons to quit smoking are

- First of all my health.. Yes smoking has done enough damage to my health & beauty already.. and I
  do not want to wait untill something bad happens to my health for me to be forced to quit smoking.

- Being a rolemodel.. I don't want my kids to be a smoker

- My money... I spend alot of money on this thing called smoking

- Smell.. Due to this smoking you always stink.. even if you don't think so... sorry I got news for you..     You do!!

- I'm waisting time on smoking that I can spend otherwise, like accomplishing my goals.

Trying to stay focussed!

It's like I'm pushing my quitting date away, by not preparing myself mentally on quitting cold turkey.
I just keep smoking away like it's nothing....
So I have to get back on track with my goal and that is to quit smoking for ever!

It's hard, I know!!
But at the end of the day I will beat this bad addiction.

Prepare to quit smoking

My plan is to quit smoking cold turkey!! I know for me this is the best way to go about it.
When I set my quit date I have to be prepared, my mind has to be in the right place. Because it's my thoughts I have to fight against the most. It's my mind that goes crazy if I don't have a cigarette.
So I have to be prepared when the day comes to quit.



I'm going to read a book to prepare myself mentally on quit smoking. I've read this book a couple of years ago and it was a real eye-opener. The book is written in dutch and the title is ;'Nederland stopt met roken'. The writers of this book are Pauline Dekker & Wanda de Kanter, they are pulmonologist of profession.

I find this a very good book that explains a lot about smoking, not only the addiction part or the diseases you get from smoking, but also the business side of the smoking industry.


So much failure you go through before you get rid of these cigarettes. When you start smoking you just inhale it, maybe you cough a little here and there, maybe you get a little dizzy but that's it. But it's the quitting part that's the hardest and it can even take years before you finally live a smoke-free life.

Intro..

Welcome to my smoking journey, or better yet, my quit-smoking journey.

I will give you some brief information about me. As you now know I'm trying to quit smoking, again. Yes, again! I've tried a tons of times, all with no success. So what I'm going to do now is... try again!!  I must beat this 'bad habit'. I refuse to stay a slave to this 'silent killer' for life. So I will keep trying to quit smoking until I succeed.

At the moment I smoke a pack of 22 cigarettes a day, that cost me € 7 every day. I spend € 7 to get myself sick, and to shorten my lifespan. It's ridiculous, I know. So this time I will give it a different approach. I will blog about it. Stay tuned!